Counting Fireflies

Another Friday, we're on the porch swing Counting fireflies, hear the car horns ringing The same cheap wine, same worn-out T-shirts We're laughing, yeah, but now the silence hurts

I watch you all from across the haze Remembering the ease of those old days Before the quiet came to sit beside me Before the thought I couldn't seem to hide

Every time I'm out with friends It feels different now I used to be touchy here and touchy there But since that night, it changed my heart

Yeah, since that night it changed my heart Pulled the curtain down and tore the map apart Now I'm just watching from the window pane Praying things will feel the same again

You reached for my hand, I pulled it back slow A simple gesture, a place I used to go It's not that I don't love the warmth you bring It's just that I remember everything

I see the ghost of my old self still smiling Before the vulnerability was tiring She'd lean right in, not think about the fallout I'm standing here, responding to your call-out

Every time I'm out with friends It feels different now I used to be touchy here and touchy there But since that night, it changed my heart

Yeah, since that night it changed my heart Pulled the curtain down and tore the map apart Now I'm just watching from the window pane Praying things will feel the same again

It wasn't a fire, no, it was a slow fade Just a moment where the light and shadow played Something shifted in the air, a tiny click Now I'm a little guarded, I'm a little sick Of holding onto something that I can't name Wishing I could just be carelessly the same.

Every time I'm out with friends... It feels different now... Every time I'm out with friends... It feels different now...